Ex-WWE star 'didn't really want to be alive anymore' after her sex tape leaked
After going through the terrible ordeal of having her private images and videos leaked, Ex-WWE star Saraya-Jade Bevis said she 'didn’t really want to be alive anymore'.
The 31-year-old, who was better known in WWE by the name Paige, was forced to retire from the sport in 2018.
This was due to an unfortunate injury shortly after Bevis became a two-time WWE Divas Champion and the inaugural NXT Women's Champion.
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But during her career, the former WWE star went through some difficult moments.
One year before Bevis announced her retirement from all forms of WWE, photos and videos emerged of her engaging in sexual acts.
Last year, she opened up about her experiences she went through when she joined Renee Paquette on her podcast The Sessions.
Bevis, who is British, recalled being in San Antonio at the time, describing it as 'just the most awful moment' of her life.
She continued: "The person that I was with at the time showed me a picture on Twitter. I was just like ‘Oh my God.’ I was like, ‘Is that real?’ because I couldn’t believe it was real at first.
"I was f**king 19 years old, and I was completely f**king mortified. I ran out of the house. I ran. I just kept f**king running.”
Bevis revealed she quite literally hid in a bush for fear that people would recognise her and know what had happened, with the ordeal coming at a time when she was battling substance abuse issues with cocaine and alcohol.
“I’d never wish that upon anyone, because that’s the most vulnerable part of you," she continued. "I felt so stupid to have trusted this person at the time.
"I’ve never done it since. That was a f**king lesson, I’ve learned, and I’ll never be caught dead doing it again.
“I felt so f**king stupid, and so embarrassed, and was I already like a f**king coke head at this time, and loved to drink, and that really f**king got me to rock bottom where I didn’t really want to be alive anymore, dude."
The wrestler remembered being 'so f**king sad' and dreading that her dad would be disappointed with her.
"I remember being like, ‘if my dad is disappointed with me, I don’t think I could be here anymore'," she said.
She called her dad, still while hiding in the bush, and said she was 'so sorry'.
He asked her what she was sorry for and pointing out: “You had sex. Everyone’s done it. Unfortunately you’re just in the public eye. It is what it is. You’ve got to suck it up."
Bevis' dad admitted it was 'gonna hurt for a little bit' and that people would 'make fun' of her, but made clear: "I just want you to know that I’m still proud of you and I’m not disappointed.”
Her dad's response 'instantly changed' the way she was feeling, and when her brother had a similar reaction she knew she was going to be okay.
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Callum Jones