Prior to welcoming her twin daughters last year, Jesy Nelson has admitted she actually didn't want children and described the moment she fell pregnant as 'very strange'.
The Little Mix star gave birth to Ocean Jade and Story Monroe Nelson-Foster last May, and earlier this month, she made the emotional admission of her children's SMA Type 1 diagnosis.
According to Cleveland Clinic, SMA is a 'genetic condition that causes worsening muscle weakness'. While there is no cure for the disease, certain therapies and medications can help with symptoms.
It was never the plan for Nelson to have children though, as she discussed on the Great Company with Jamie Laing podcast.
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"I never wanted children, did you know, oh my God," she said.
"Anytime I met anyone, and they'd be like, also, 'I want kids ... [I always thought] 'F*** sake, here we go'. Because I just did not I was not maternal at all."
Nelson continued: "And then when I fell pregnant, which wasn't on purpose, this feeling that I got was just very strange and abnormal because I was like: 'Why am I happy?'"
The unexpected pregnancy left Nelson with feelings of 'fear' and 'worry', as she continued: "It really freaked me out. I felt butterflies, but like excitement, but then also ... like fear and worry.
"And I was like, I couldn't understand it. I couldn't understand why I was feeling these when I have never wanted children."
Nelson went on to explain Zion Foster, her now ex-fiancé, was keen to be a dad, whereas the Little Mix star's headspace was completely different.
She continued: "This is so awkward. And you know, we'd been together like, two years at this point, so, yeah, so when I felt pregnant, I was like, I was so overwhelmed by all these feelings.
"I never wanted children, and then the universe gave me twins."
The 34-year-old spoke with the Daily Mail recently, where she said the family's 'main priority' is their twins, which lead to Nelson and Foster going their separate ways.
Nelson went on to explain the 'energy' between the couple 'wasn't right', stating that she and Foster decided to call it quits so they could give their daughters 'the most positive, happy and uplifting time and energy'.
"We are still friends, and we are still united in co-parenting our daughters, they are our main focus, that's all we can do, be the best possible parents we can right now," Nelson went on to say.
Callum Jones