Elliot Page shares details on the first time he kissed a girl
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Elliot Page has shared the details from the first time he ever kissed a girl.
The Umbrella Academy star is opening up about his experiences in his new memoir, Pageboy, set to come out tomorrow (6 June), which seeks to shine a light on his journey as a transgender person and how he navigates in an often unforgiving world.
Since coming out as a trans man back in 2020, Page has since used his platform to raise awareness and spread positivity over a plethora of important social issues.
Publisher Flatiron Books said the new book will take a dive into Page's 'relationship with his body, his experiences as one of the most famous trans people in the world, and will cover mental health, assault, love, relationships, sex and the cesspool that Hollywood can be'.
The 36-year-old has previously spoken up about his various experiences surrounding his journey of self-acceptance revealing he felt 'grateful to be here and alive'.
Using his platform to amplify issues that affect the LGBTQ+ community, Page acknowledged: "My experience as a trans person and this life I have, and the privilege I have does not represent the reality of most trans lives.
"I think it’s crucial, I think we need to feel represented and see ourselves, you know, that’s not something I had liked as a kid."
He continued, highlighting the importance of intersectionalism when discussing such subject matters: "The reality is trans people are disproportionately unemployed, disproportionately experience homelessness. Trans women of color are being murdered. People are losing their healthcare or can’t access it."
Ahead of the book's release, Page has also shared some details about the first time he ever kissed a girl in the first chapter of the memoir.
He penned: "I met Paula when I was twenty. Sitting on our friend’s couch, eating raw almonds with her knees to her chest, she introduced herself, 'I’m Paula.' The sound of her voice radiated warmth, a kindness.
"It wasn’t so much that her eyes lit up but that they found you. I could feel her looking. We went to Reflections. It was the first time I had been to a gay bar, and would be my last for a long time."
Recalling the moment the pair rocked up to the club, Page revealed: "Shame had been drilled into my bones since I was my tiniest self, and I struggled to rid my body of that old toxic and erosive marrow.
"But there was a joy in the room, it lifted me, forced a reaction in the jaw, an uncontrolled, steady smile."
While the experience was relatively novel for Page, he mustered up the courage to ask Paula if he could kiss her.
"And then I did. In a queer bar," the Juno star wrote. "In front of everyone around us. Everything was cold before, motionless, emotionless."
He went on to disclose: "Any woman I had loved hadn’t loved me back, and the one who maybe had, loved me the wrong way. But here I was, on a dance floor with a woman who wanted to kiss me, and the antagonizing, cruel voice that flooded my head whenever I felt desire was silent.”
He continues: “We leaned in so our lips brushed, the tips of our tongues barely touching, testing, sending shocks through my limbs.
"We stared at each other, a quiet knowing. Here I was on the precipice. Getting closer to my desires, my dreams, me, without the unbearable weight of the self-disgust I’d carried for so long."
Pageboy will be released on 6 June.