Last November, Britney Spears fans rejoiced after her 13-year conservatorship ended. But unfortunately for the much-loved singer, it hasn’t all been roses since the end of her conservatorship.
In an Instagram post on Monday (22 August), the ‘Baby One More Time’ singer said there's 'no way to fix' her and admitted to crying herself to sleep most nights.
“It’s crazy… social media… everybody’s life seems so perfect and when I post things I think most of the time I’ve been utterly and completely embarrassed of my past… and who can forget those documentaries," the singer wrote in the emotional post.
She then went onto explain that she uses social media to try and improve her image in the media, saying: “So yes, I do try and post me looking my best or what it may seem to be the good life… well, the truth is, my spirits are better but I will forever be traumatised by my past experience for life."
She added: "There is no way to fix me, my emotions and my sensitivity… therapy, all of it !!! I think I will need some sort of miracle for my emotions.
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“I cry myself to sleep most night… I’m insecure as hell… I don’t know how to have good posture unless I’m on camera and I need to go to a school just to be taught how to freaking walk”.
Unsurprisingly, fans flooded to the comments with kind words of support, with one saying: “We love you no matter what”.
Meanwhile another commended her openness, writing: “Being strong enough to share your vulnerabilities is inspiring”.
The singer laments in the post how her life on stage has only ever been an act, and as a result, she’s lost all sense of know-how.
But she also makes note of how although she’s 'never had seconds at dinner', she’s getting to grips with what 'more' means and learning that maybe wanting more 'isn’t so bad'.
Britney entered a conservatorship under her father in 2008, which stripped her of her rights to most personal matters, including the handling of basic finances, her personal life, her health and estate.
She was essentially blocked from being able to exert any kind of independence.
While fans were ecstatic for the singer last year when the conservatorship finally ended after years of #FreeBritney campaigning, unfortunately for Britney, she wasn't able to just snap back to how life was before the nightmare began.
Hopefully the singer has a future ahead of her where she can comfortably say 'gimme more' without doubting herself. We’re rooting for you, Britney.
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Topics: Britney Spears, Celebrity
Jenny Medlicott