Footage from a new documentary shows singer Selena Gomez tearfully revealing how her record label wanted her to collaborate with ex-boyfriend Justin Bieber.
Gomez, 30, has given fans behind-the-scenes access to her life in a new Apple TV+'s My Mind and Me, which follows a period of ‘darkness’ after achieving ‘unimaginable stardom’ as the star opens up about her mental health struggles.
While the documentary doesn’t go into detail about Gomez and Bieber’s relationship, she does speak about the difficulties of going through such a public breakup.
But one particularly heartbreaking moment shows Gomez breaking down in tears during rehearsals for her 2016 Revival tour, tragically opening up about her insecurities as a solo artist – heavily implying she was under pressure to work with ex Justin Bieber.
She breaks down and explains how she doesn’t feel good enough for the tour, outlining several insecurities she is experiencing.
“I don't know what John [Janick, Chairman and CEO of Interscope Geffen A&M Records] thinks,” she says.
“I want to talk to John. I don't want to disappoint John. I don't want him to think that he signed some f**king Disney kid.
“It just sucks too, because the whole song thing. He called me this morning about the song with Justin, like, when am I just going to be good enough by myself?”
She adds: “When am I gonna be good just by myself, not needed anybody to be associated with?”
Eventually, after 55 performances, the tour was cancelled due to her mental health issues growing worse.
Her former assistant recalled the singer saying how she didn’t ‘wanna be alive’, saying: “It was one of those moments where you look into her eyes and there’s nothing there.
"It was just pitch black and it’s so scary. You're like 'OK, f—k this. This needs to end. We’re going home.'”
Gomez’s best friend Raquelle Stevens, who features throughout the film, also said: “Her answer was, like, ‘I don’t know. I can’t explain it. I wish you could feel what it feels like to be in my head.’
"I just remember it being very chaotic and she was hearing all of these voices.
"That triggered some sort of psychotic break.”
UNILAD has reached out to Universal Music Group, which owns Interscope Geffen A&M Records, for comment.
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