Ashton Kutcher says he considered suicide so his twin brother could have his heart
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Ashton Kutcher has opened up about wanting to take his own life in order to save his brother's.
The actor has a twin brother called Michael, who has cerebral palsy, which affects his coordination and motor skill functionality.
But things took a turn for the worse when the brothers were in their early teens and doctors said that Michael only had just weeks to live if he didn't get a heart transplant.
"I'm thinking to myself: 'If anyone's a match, I'm a match'," Kutcher recalled in new Paramount+ docuseries The Checkup with Dr. David Agus.
"Now you start running that cycle through your head. You're like, 'This balcony looks far enough to take things'."
The 44-year-old continued: "I think standing on the balcony going, 'I'm a match', that moment is probably the exact moment the shift took place, where I'm like, 'How do I get to be this lucky, and my brother to be born with cerebral palsy, then have a heart transplant?',"
Fortunately, Michael was able to find a donor, and he now works as a keynote speaker.
"I woke up one day and was having vision issues [and] could hardly see," he said.
"[It] knocked out my hearing, which threw off my equilibrium, my balance and I couldn't walk. I had vasculitis, that you're very well aware of.
"There's a standard you become accustomed to in your life, like, being able to see clearly. And then suddenly, you can't see."
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